Month: May 2009

On Nuclear

Tun Mahathir wrote about this in his blog, opposing the idea of nuclear power. Not much of a scientific discussion, but here’s the first opposition to the idea I’ve read about in Malaysia:


Final Hours (II): 69 Stamford Street

One of my finest moments in Manchester was probably when I was residing in the Old Trafford, in a house consisting of seven girls : Kak Khairiah, Kak Ros, Kak Dayah, Kak Abby, Hanee, Aidah and I. Well, my current housemates asked: Is the one we are living in not good enough? I told them it was different, the environment is very much the same – lively and full of love, but admit it, when you are younger there is less responsibility – hence merrier.

I made this video years ago, kept it private in Youtube for a while, but decided to put it back here. I missed these people so much. 


My my. 69 Stamford. How I wish I could turn back time.

p.s. I have just another exam to go inshaAllah!

Love, Miss and Forget

Always my favourite song, had me crying each time without fail. Amidst all these turbulences of choices to be made and responsibilities to be taken, I think I should again resort back to what I aspire to be – an ascetic.

I’m callin’ U
With all my goals, my very soul
Ain’t fallin’ through
I’m in need of U
The trust in my faith
My tears and my ways is drowning so
I cannot always show it
But don’t doubt my love

I’m callin’ U
With all my time and all my fights
In search for the truth
Tryin’a reach U

See the worth of my sweat
My house and my bed
Am lost in sleep
I will not be false in who I am
As long as I breathe

Oh, no, no
I don’t need nobody
& I don’t feel nobody
I don’t call nobody but U
My One & Only

I don’t need nobody
& I don’t feel nobody
I don’t call nobody but U
all I need in my life

I’m callin’ U
When all my joy
And all my love is feelin’ good
Cuz it’s due to U

See the time of my life
My days and my nights
so it’s alright
Cuz at the end of the day
I still got enough for me and my

I’m callin’ U
When all my keys
And all my bizz
Runs all so smooth
I’m thankin’ U
See the halves in my life
My patience, my wife
With all that I know
Oh, take no more than I deserve
Still need to learn more

Oh, no, no
I don’t need nobody
& I don’t feel nobody
I don’t call nobody but U
My One & Only

I don’t need nobody
& I don’t feel nobody
I don’t call nobody but U
all I need in my life

Our relationship, so complex
Found U while I was headed straight for hell in quest
You have no one to compare to
‘Cause when I lie to myself it ain’t hidden from U
I guess I’m thankful
Word on the street is U changed me
It shows in my behaviour
Past present future
Lay it all out
Found my call in your house
And let the whole world know what this love is about

Yo te quiero, te extraño, te olvido
Aunque nunca me has faltado, siempre estas conmigo
Por las veces que he fallado y las heridas tan profundas
Mejor tarde que nunca para pedirte mil disculpas
Estoy gritando callado yo te llamo, te escucho, lo intento
De ti yo me alimento
Cuando el aire que respiro es violento y turbulento
Yo te olvido, te llamo, te siento

I love you, I miss you, I forget you
Even though you never let me down and always are by my side
For all the times I’ve failed and hurt you deeply
Better later than never to give you a 1000 apologies
I’m shouting silently, callin’ you, I’m listening to you, I’m tryin’
You nourish me
When the air that I breathe is violent and turbulent
I’m forgettin’ you, I’m callin’ you, I’m feelin’ you

Oh, no, no
I don’t need nobody
& I don’t fear nobody
I don’t call nobody but U
My One & Only

I don’t need nobody
& I don’t feel nobody
I don’t call nobody but U…

oh, no, no
i don’t need nobody
& I don’t feel nobody
I don’t call nobody but you
MY one and only


I don’t need nobody
& i don’t feel nobody
I don’t call nobody but you
all i need in my life 

Break the Silence: Green and Sustainable

Here’s the curse: Whenever that I announce I am taking a break from posting entries, in the very next hour I’d have something to write.

I was researching for my Solid Waste Management and Valorisation coursework when I ended up at the website of the German authority on waste and environment. To be honest, I am quite impressed with their policy on these things, very sophisticated, and when I have almost believed that Germany is probably the greenest country on earth, I googled and found something even more interesting.

Let me reiterate, being green and sustainable are not the same. By being sustainable, you are being green, but not otherwise -hence you go figure out which one is the subset of the others. 

I have always found it difficult to explain to my colleagues the difference between these two – some of my friends start teasing me by saying that being an environmentalist and venturing out in oil and gas industry are not compatible – but I beg to differ, and that is because of the idea of sustanability and sustainable development (as a process of moving towards sustainability) I subscribe to – they are not primarily about the environment, but indeed there are other two bottom lines: the economy and the society.

And that means there is no point of you saving the forest and all when there are people dying of famine, there’s no point of a country with increasing GDP but the moral growth is zero, and these are just as unethical as sucking up oil while leaving the earth suffering. 

But what I found is rather interesting:

Yes, the greenest might be the Germans,but the most sustainable is Cuba

For someone who has just become so fond of Fidel Castro and Che Guevara (I’m about to finish watching Che Part One, and I love it!), that is particularly exciting.

I have plenty of time really, inshaAllah to study on this thing (apart from some of my other projects to do in time to wait for my convocation in mid July – studying environmental philosophy, feminism, some creative writings, some projects on usrah’s syllabus among them), and see what I can tell you about it later!

p.s. Will be visiting Germany soon- I was not planning on having a city break, but Germany is a temptation for an environmentalist like me!  Here’s the first glimpse:

germany1germany2(Train ticket Website, there you go, with all graphs and figures about the emission of the journey you are to take)








My poster presentation will be on Thursday 7.

My Solid Waste Management and Valorisation 5000-word report must be handed on the 18th.

My Eco-Design and Green Chemistry exam will start on Monday 21.

And yes, the final written university exam that I am to sit will be on the 26th – for Solid Waste Management and Valorisation – which will mark the end of my university life [Part One hopefully, thinking of coming back but not so soon].

Until then, this blog will be kept in silence. 

But here are some suggestions, from my previous writings:

Tuesdays with Morrie: a Reflection

Di Mana Saya dan Anda?

A Few Days to Go…

Moralities: Relax No More

Of Motherhood

File Tandus Agama?

Of Pure Hearts, Ramadhan, Goku and Atticus

Milestones: To Know is to Act Upon

Fidel Castro: My Life

As If the World Matters

Till then, take care!

p.s. I have accepted a job offer, Sime Darby. En route to my dreams, insha Allah.